Just Some Ramblings

This morning I sat in the food court as I always do before I come to work. I always have a few extra minutes to sit and enjoy my coffee. I leaked a bit of my coffee onto the lid and I went to sip it off and got lipstick all over the lid. It was quiet amusing. Every morning my coffee cup has lip prints all over it and every morning I think to myself that I should wait until after my coffee to apply lipstick. Yet every morning I go to the washroom at union and apply my make up including my lipstick. I guess when you get into a routine it is hard to change it. It is almost as if your brain works on memory alone. So I guess I will always have lipstick marks on my coffee cup.
The other night when I came home I said, out loud so everyone in the house could here, "hello I am home". The only response I received was "yo" from my eldest son. Not even a "hi" just "yo". I guess I should be thankful I got a response at all. Soon enough I might be begging for just a grunt.
The intersection near my house where I get off the bus and cross the road is getting to more dangerous by the day. Now, each time I cross I wait for the little man to come on so then the drivers have no excuse for not expecting some one to be crossing he road. Yet last night I was just about run over by a women who simply could not be bothered to look to see if anyone was crossing the road. The night be for I was almost run down by two cars. The first being a guy to busy yapping at his wife to pay attention the second, speeding and too close to the first, was a women who smiled and gave a little giggle with a look that said oh how funny I didn't see you. I replied with a look that implied " YOU F****** MORON SLOW DOWN AND WATCH WHAT YOU ARE DOING. HOW DARE YOU LAUGH AT THE FACT THAT I WAS ALMOST MADE ROAD KILL BY YOUR STUPIDY."The women didn't seem to impressed that I stopped for a few seconds right in front of her car. She squealed her tires going around the corner. Now that is the type of thing that make me think better of her.(sarcasm included). I am going to start carrying a pen and paper in my hand so that I can write down the license plates of all these people and report them for negligence.
That is right from now on I will be the biggest nark anyone has ever seen. So for all you drivers out there who go threw the insection of Main st and Nanwood rd in Brampton between six and seven pm on week nights watch out here I come. I will not play nice if no one else is.

Sister moves in

My sister Liz has moved in with us. Which I am glad for. Even though this means I can't have the rec room whenever I want now. That is where Liz's room is. But I have some one to help me around the house and (sorry to say Liz) someone to take some of the crap from aunt Fran. Now if she stops borrowing my things without asking, all will be heavenly. So I have not managed to wash my kitchen floor work a week or two. Liz did it yesturday. Thank goodness otherwise I would have to listen to my aunt bitch and complain about the housework not getting done. That is right folks, it doesn't matter how much I do she only sees what I don't do. I can't wait to have my own place and have things run the way I want them. Although the way things are looking I am NEVER going to be on my own because I will be too busy taking care of my severly senial aunt. Which I guess I can count as paying her back in a way. After all she has taken care of me and my children for the past several years. Even if she will be the reason for my mental breakdown.
Work is boring again. I have nothing to do at the moment. Still waiting to here about the CIBC thing. So for now I can write a really long blog post. Although this one probably won't be that long just because I have the time to make it long.
So I saw my friend Larry last night on my way home. I was standing at the bus stop and didn't see him at first. But he saw me and didn't know it was me and he totally was checking me out. Then he realized who I was. I thought it was quite funny. Apparently I look good in my work clothes. Which I am totally glad for I not really one for dressing up but if I look good then it one reason to not mind it. Last week I saw a few guys I used to work with and they complimented on my looks tooo. So I am feeling pretty good this week. It has been a while since I got anything but sleezy comments from strange men in the street. Speaking of which maybe someone can explain to me why guys feel inn appropiate to yell things like "nice legs baby" to strange women in streets. Or why is it that they think just because they pullover and ask for our phone number, before saying so much as hi my name is....., that we will actually give it to them. No wI realize not every man has committed such acts but quite a few have and it boggels my mind as to how this can be seen as appropriate behaviour. Now I know this doesn't just happen to me because it has happened to every female I know and every female they know. And it is not just young guys either men in their 30's and 40's have made stupid comments to me or someone I know. Is it that they justy don't think be before they speak or what?
Well this turned out to be a pretty decent sized blog post after all. So I will make this the end. Just one more thing, smile and have a good day.

I am Mad

I could be over reacting. But I am upset at the fact that my boyfriend did not call me at all yesturday. We talk every day. I called him twice. Iwas going to call a third time but I didn't want to be the nagging girfriend who can't givew her boyfriend any space. I don't know if he was working yesturday or not. It is still no excuse for him not to answer my calls. Maybe his phone was dead.
What ever the reason here is my dilema, should I or should I not call him today. I always call him at lunch hour. It is the only way I get to talk to him. Plus I have to make sure he gets up for work. I don't want to though I want him to call me and explain why he didn't call me back yesturday. I even left him a message yesturday asking him to call me. Am I asking to much? I am so upset I just do'nt know what to do. I do'nt want to get into a fight over something so minor. Although I have felt a little ignored all weekend. Saturday we were going to hang out for the day take the kids for lunch and a movie. This was Oscar's idea. He had to friday night. Instead of coming home after work so he could get up at a decent hour, on saturday, he decided to go have a few beers with people from work and stay out most of the night. He could have done the saturday night. So on saturday Oscar did get up untill three in the afternoon. No whe new I had things to do. So I did them with out him. He did however take the kids and I to the movies. So did see him for a few hours. I was going to go to the bar, where he works, that night but he gave the impression that he didn't want me there. Though it could be that he thinks I wouldn't be able go to the christmas party on the 25 if I went out on saturday. Sometimes I just find myself wondering what is going on in his head. Does he really love me or is this relationship going to end like all the rest.

Well it is almost the end of the week. Thank goodness. I have a million and one things to do this weekend and I will be much happier when it is all over with.
I have completed the form for criminal check that my boss wanted. Now I just have to wait for it to be done. To answer Matts question I don't know where the Cibc site is. I know it is approx. 5 mins. from where I work now so it could very well be the one on front street. I guess I'll find out when I go there. I currently am trying to finish some work for Jason. It is so repetative though. I simply had to take a break. Seeing how it is lunch hour I figure it is a good time for break. I have my aunt's homemade chili for lunch today. It is soooo goood. "Like Totally ha ha". Okay i'm going to eat. So I shall sign off for now. But never fear I wiil post more at a later date in time.

My boss is doing a criminal check on me. It is a requirement to work at CIBC. That is right folks my boss is trusting me to go to another site. I am that good. Yeah right, I am only being sent there for two weeks to fill in for someone who is going on vacation. At least I get a change of scenery for a while. Hopefully there is lots of work to keep me busy. I know I will be doing some data entry stuff but I wonder if I'll be answering phones as well. Well I have to cut this blog short. I have been given work to do.

Its friday. The work week is only a few hours from over. The time to relax and enjoy the queit sereen of life is almost here. Yeah right, more like time to give up silence and deal with loud obnaucious kids for two days. I can't wait.
I have to go pick up our christmas pictures this weekend. Hopefully they turn out fine. The pictures looked good on the computer. But that doesn't always help. At least this year neither of my boys had marked up faces. Every year one or the other has a big scrap or scar of some sort I guess that whats I get for having boys. Though I would change a thing. I am probably the only women in the entire world that has no desire to have a daughter. I would love to have a niece. So Liz and Matt had better start thinking long term plans. I want to be an aunt while I am still young. I am already 27 years old. My sister is my only hope for nieces and nephews. My brothers are no where near the point of there lifes where they should be thinking of haveing kids. Liz isn't there either but she is closer. I have my girlfriends boys as nephews already. So cough me up a niece before I am 35 years old.
Oscar wants to have a boy. Just one he says. I really wasn't planning on EVER having anymore. But if we get married I can see having one more child. Just as long as we have a boy. We already decided that I get the baby when he is little and cute and doesn't talk back. Once the boy hits three he is all Oscars. Plus I get to hace a memebership to any gym I want so I can get rid of the pregnancy weight asap. I can just imagine who much I 'll gain with the next pregnancy. It ought to be fun teaching Oscar to do things like change a diaper and how to hold the baby. But all this is only going to happen if and when we get married. I am going to do things right this time. Or just not at all.
So what do you think of my multi-coloured blog?

Coffee

I never used to one to drink coffee. Now that I am up so early every morning (5:50 am) I find that I need something warm and cafenated to help kick start the old engine. Hot chocolate just doesn't do it neither does tea. So I figured out how much milk and sugar to add to my coffee so that it tastes good. I even have that one place I go to every day. One guy who works there makes jokes about how he is going to give flavored coffee instead of the regular blend I ask for. I truely have fallen into the norm of he business world. Except of course that I type up blogs at work.
At least when they give me something to do I have it finished on time or sooner. But when there is nothing to do no amount of coffee could keep me from wanting to sit back and close my eyes for five minutes. At least typing a blog keeps me awake for a few more minutes.
I dont have the time before I leave my house to do my make up. So I do it when I get to union. I always have an hour to blow. This morning it was -1 out. I decided to where my hat and I would fix my hair at union. I got to washroom and looked in the mirror and thought if a young child saw me they would probably run away sreaming. I was such a frightful sight. I had my coat with the big hood on it so I was hidden for most of the way. Just imagine what I will look like when I am old and wrinkly, oh so scary. I could be a wicked old witch for halloween without even dressing up. I didn't end up dressing up this halloween (not enough time) so if anyone asked I was an over worked under appreciated mom. Well I think this should be the end of this blog so long for now. I will return ( insert evil laugh).

Halloweeen is here

Halloween has finally arrived. The boys are so excited. First they have their parties at school then they are going trick or treating tonight. My Aunt is taking them this year. I volunteered to stay home and do the shelling out to all the little trick or treaters. Although I hate the idea of missing my kids trick or treat I need the time to make their lunches for the next day and I have to make mine. Plus my Aunt may be a pain in my as but she does help us a lot and she really wants to take the kids this year. As an added bonus Oscar, my boyfriend, is going to come hand out candy with me. So I maybe missing out on Joseph song of " trick or treat, Smell my feet" but there are benefits to me staying home this year.
I think I will stop at the bargain shop and get flash lights for the boys. Or at least for Joseph. Kurtis has one and I know he will run ahead of his brother so they should have there own. I can't wait to see the kids all dressed up. Joseph is going to be a ninga and Kurtis is going as the character from scream. They both look so cool. I have a few pictures left on my camera so I going to get pictures before they go out.
I am the Queen of taking pictures when it comes to my kids. I take pictures of them on ordinary days just playing around. I have so many pictures from school and christmas. Every year I take them to walmart and get the christmas package, which is less then fifteen bucks. Yet there was a couple of tears that I managed to spend about $100 on pictures. Just because I could make up my mind what poses I like the best. So I got a few pictures of every pose. Now I have so many pictures in my room in my picture draw (that right folks a draw, not a box, not a photo album, although I have those too.) just doing nothing. I have pictures on my walls in my room and the living room. I just to display how cute my children are. I use the pictures to remind me of how good they can be, when they are not being good.
I am debatting on weither or not to dress up I think I should the kids love it when the adults dress up. i have a withes costume that would be very easy to put on. I guess it depends on how much time I have to spend helping the boys get ready. I think I am more excited then they are.
Well I should sign off, I am at work. Although I have nothing to do. At least typing up a blog post makes it look like I am working.

My Aunt is driving me nuts

Every weekend my Aunt says "WE" have to clean the house. Every weekend it seems that I am the only one doing any house work. When I was working part time at night I was the one that did all the cleaning which made sense. My Aunt works fulltime and was not at home as much as I was. Now I am working 9 untill 5, five days a week and still doing all the cleaning at home. The only thing my Aunt does is the grocery shopping, which I have to put them all away. This past weekend my Aunt says "sunday we will do the house work together after church. But of course when we got home from church my Aunt was so tired she needed to lie down. Then she went grocery shopping for three hours. At least she took my son with her so I could get some work done. Because yet again I was the only one cleaning the house. Not only does she not help but my Aunt complains about how I do everything including how I do my own laundry. On top of this it took me like twenty minutes to figure out where my sister had left my cd player. Put it back in my room when your done or at least not in the office where I never look. Just kidding Liz.
There is only so much one person can take before they finally snap.

So my sister is at my house on the weekends. Sometimes her boyfriend comes over. When he does they get alll sucky face with each other and they're so cute. It really could turn a persons stomach. Just kidding. I am happy for my sister and Matt. I know my sister deserves to have someone to love and Matt seems like a very nice guy. So all the best to Liz and Matt!
I am trying very hard to not make any spelling or grammar errors. Liz has mentioed that I tend to make a few. (Like her blogs are perfect). I don't know if a period after a bracket is proper grammar but whatever.
Oscar (my boyfriend) and I went out last friday. We went to the bar I used to work at. Oscar still works there. It may not sound like loads of fun to go to the bar I couldn't stand working at but we get free pool and there was an AC/DC tribute band playing. Plus we really didn't feel like going to an over crowded club or far from home. So this was the perfect night out. We had a few beers, played some pool and enjoyed the band. We also did a little catching up. That was the second time I have seen my boyfriend this month. He works nights in shifts of four days on, two days of. So most weekends he is working. It is really hard to co-ordinate our schedules for some quality time together. So when we do get together we tend to spend alot of time together. That night we left at 8 pm and didn't get home until 3am.
I had lunch with my cousin today. He is a bike messenger. So he told me how he ran into a car awhile back. He said the car was turning or something and neither him nor the driver was paying much attention. So there was a collision. Eric (my cousin) wasn't hurt much and continued to work for the rest of the day. I am not sure I could do that. I think if I went over the hood of a car I would be taking the rest of the day of. Eric says it takes a "special" kinda of people to be a bike messenger. I think he is right.
Okay I think this blog is long enough, so I will sign off now.

I was worried that I would have to take a day off work to take my son to the dentist. As it turns out my sister is able to take him. Thank goodness for sisters. I really didn't want to miss a day in the first three months of being here. How would it look?
My sister babysat the kids yesturday. They had a half day off of school. She was telling me that my youngest was being cranky. I think it is because they both are up way to late. I put them to bed at nine oclock, we read a story and then it is lights out by nine thirty. Most nights they are still talking up a storm at ten thirty. I can tell them to be quiet and go to sleep untill I am blue in the face. They just wait until they think I am out of ear shot. The only benefit to having an old house with walls as thin as paper, I hear everything my boys do and say. The boys have to be up at seven thirty in order to get ready for school. I don't understand how the have so much energy.

my new job is great

It is the end of the third week of my new job. I have completed three tasks. I have figured out the fancy phone . I am slowly settling in. I have learned alot. I totally love this job. The only down side is that I get paid only once a month. I guess that is something I will just have to get used to. I can't wait fopr my next task. It is kinda boring just answering the phone. My boss wants to send me to our cibc site to do data entry work. He said it is the same stuff I was doing for him. I am so excited but completely nervous. If this happens and I don't screw things up it is one more point for me to be hired permenantly.
The kids seem to like their baby sitter. She is our neighbor so that made it easier the kids, already new her. She is great with the kids. I haven't had any complaints yet. Lets hope it stays that way.

I had my interview with UTR today and it swell. So well infact that just before 3 pm today I recieved an e mail stating I got the job for a three month training program. I am so excited, this is my first job that is an office position.
I hope that I do well enough for them to like me and keep me on after the three months. I am a had worker and fast learner so hopefully I pick up the computer stuff quickly and easily. I am nervous.
I start this Monday. So I have a week to find daycare for the kids. My little guy can go to grandmas untill I figure something out. My one neighbor might take my oldest. I am going to ask my teenage neighbor if she would like an after school job. Hopefully she doesn't already have a job and she says yes.
The cool thing about me typing all theese blogs is that my typing skills have really picked up.

Last night was open house at my sons' school. I met their teachers and they are both doing so well in school. My oldest has always been a good student but my youngest had trouble in kindergarden. H eis quite the shy little boy. This year seems to be different, he speaks up in class. He isn't afraid to say the answers to the questions that he knows. He also knows his words alot better then he did last year. I guess all that reading and writing I do with him is really helping. I am so glad he is doing better.
My aunt got the boys some new books from the book fair at the school. My youngest got a build a book. You make it yourself. We are having fun with that. My oldest got a poster an da magnetic building set. It was a fun night until we got home. I told the boys to get ready for bed when we got home. Instead they decided to open their new books and toys. I had gone down stairs to boot up the computer so I could use it when they were in bed. When I came up to check if they were ready for bed my aunt was talking to them about why they were not doing as they were told. I decided that there new things had to be taken away until they were ready for bed. My aunt got mad that I was interfering with her and the boys. She said "I can handle this". Now correct me if I am mistaken but I am their mother and the discipline should come from me. My aunt has always said that I need to take charge of the boys which I will gladly do as soon as she gets out of my way. The boys and I get along splendidly when she isn't home. When she comes home I have nothing but problems. Mainly because she treats me like a child, therefore that is how the boys see me. They don't listen when she is home especially my oldest. The worst is that I cannot discuss how I feel with my aunt because according to her I am always wrong. I simply cannot wait untill I have saved enough money to get back on my own.

My first real blog

So the previous blog doesn't count. I just needed to make sure this was going to work. My sister and I have been trying to set up a blog account on blogsome forever. I have given up on that site. My sister has an account there. I guess the site just doesn't like me. Which is fine because now I have my site here. The piupose of this for me is to have a place to come and get a few things of my chest when I feel the need. Possibly have some comments or advice from others. It often helps to have an outside veiw of ones world. So maybe now would be a good idea to say alittle about who I am. I am a 26 year old mother of two lovely little boys. Although my oldest is not so little in size a couple more years and he will be taller than me. I never have enough sleep therefor I am often tired. I have a boyfriend who is my toatl dream guy. We have been together for five months and we are still in that new love stage. The stage where you can't stop thinking about each other and you get that stupid grin from ear to ear whenever someone mentions their name. I am currently looking for a good school to attend some computer courses that won't cost an arm and a leg( okay that saying is so old but it still works). I want to get a job as an office assistant or something in administrative work. But to do that one has to be proficient in word and excel and i am not, yet. Well this I think concludes my first blog.

Okay finally. I have been trying to get this blog thing set up for ever. My sister and I couldn't figure it out, something with the password but it doesn't matter because now I have a blog site