life goals

I have never been one to think of a "new years resolution". I think it is a waste of time. People spend their time thinking of what they most want to accomplish for the new year and then they say over and over this is what they will do. Then of course the so called resolution is never achieved. But of course there is always some excuse or "reason" that in an entire year you couldn't accomplish one simple task.
I however do have life goals. My number one goal in life is to see my boys grow up healthy and well educated and happy. I am doing my best to see that this happens. I am working hard to support them . I have education funds set up, so when they are ready for college or university I will be able to help them afford it. I take my boys to church every sunday so that they may learn about and know God. I help my boys with school work so that they may do well. I teach them to be nice to others. I set rules so they learn the differences between right and wrong. Also so they learn responsibility.
My second goal in life is to be a better person in everything that I do. Now I am not doing so well in this area. Especially when it comes to dealings with my family. But when I am ignored or my authority over my children is compramised in front of them it is hard for me not to get angry and fly off the handle, so to speak. What my family seems to fail to realized is that the boys and I will not be living with them forever. One day we will move into a place of our own . And for us to live peacefully the boys need to know that I am the number one boss. I can not have my boys thinking that it is ok to disobey my word because someone else said something different. And I certainly do not need to be treated like a child in front of my children. Others demend respect from me. Well I feel that I have the right to demand the same respect. After all I am an Adult just like the rest.
I try my best to so my appreciation of my family. Though it never seems to show to them. I however do not know what else I can do. I will not hide my feelings. I do not believe it is a healthy way to live. So I apologize to whoever my feelings may and have upset.
In other words I need help in this area. I need for others to respect me and my wishes as much as they want me to do the same of them.