Well I haven't written anything in a while because there hasn't been much to write about. But as time passes events happen and then there is something to share with others.
My Christmas and New Years was good except for one thing, which I will get to after the good stuff. The kids where spoiled, like always. They got new x-box games, bath stuff, toys, games, books, clothes and candy. I got everything I wanted and needed including an mp3 player. Everyone got along. My aunt cooked the turkey to perfection and everything else was great. With the exception of how I have been treated by my so called boyfriend, Oscar. I had invited him to christmas dinner in November, plenty of time for him to know if he would be able to make it. Oscar agreed to come I told him that dinner was at six so we agreed for him to come in the early afternoon. Now knowing that my boyfriend tends to forget things I reminded Oscar of our plans regularly until Christmas Eve. Now the only plans that he had that he informed me of was going to his aunts later Christmas night. He never once mentioned going to his sisters during the day. So I had no reason to think that he would not show up in the early afternoon. On Christmas Eve he called me and said we need to talk about where our relationship is going. It was one of those conversations that make you think the other person wants out of the relationship and is just looking for an excuse to end it, instead of just being the adult about it. I pretended that I wasn't to upset about this because I was afraid that if I showed to much emotion Oscar would never come over and we would never sort anything out. Christmas day comes the hours roll by painfully slow untill midafternoon then the hours are gone in the blink of an eye. 6pm comes and I am just sitting down to eat my dinner. Everyone is there, except my boyfriend. The phone rings I pick it up and can you guess who it was. Yes thats right at 6:05pm my boyfriend called to say he was running a little late. I told him that I had already figured that out. So he comes we have a nice dinner, then after we talk. He says it has been eight months that we have been dating any there has been no talk of moving foward. I ask him what he means ,he says we don't talk about moving in together. Now please note that Oscar new from the beginning that I will not move in with any man untill I am married. He wants to move in together so he can see me before he goes to work or when he comes home. Because we don't see each other enough. I work 9am to 5pm monday to friday. He works 3pm to 1 am 5 days a week and then works at the bar the other two nights. Living together will not change the fact that we do not see each enough. He needs to stop working 7 nights a week. He needs to stop using every excuse to not spend time with me. If he wants to end this relationship he needs to just be a man and say so. Sorry for the angry ramblings But I am so fed up with boys pretending to be men. I tired of being with losers that only care about themselves. Back to my story. News years eve he had to work I understand that. I was going to go to his house when he was done work, then we could have thew whole night together. My kids where to be gone away so I had no set time to be home. On friday I informed Oscar that Kurtis(my oldest son) was to sick to go away so I would have to stay home on News Years Eve. I said he could come over after work and we could spend time together at my house. No one was to be home but Kurtis and me. Oscar says well I am going to my aunts house after work. Now what happen to "we don't see each other enough". He says we will do something together on Sunday before he goes to work. He says he will call me. It is now 1:30pm New Years Day and I still haven't heard from my so called boyfriend. This was the first News Years I spent crying in the New Year. I no longer care to try and work things out with Oscar I will not be treated as if I am simply a toy he can pick up when ever he wants. I deserve the same respect anyone else does. I am exhausted from trying to make this relationship work. I have explained how I feel and what I want and Oscar chooses to ignore me anyway. I have tried to no end to make him happy. Yet it doesn't seem to matter to him. So it is over. If he decides to call me I will simply tell him to come get his keys and then never again do I want to see him or hear from him. I will not be the woman that is pushed around and derespected by any man.