So I switched to the new blogger with google. It supoose to have more features. I will figure them out as I go guess.
I got an mp3 player for christmas. I listen to it on the train to and from work. It makes the ride go by faster. Since I broke up with Oscar every song semms to remind me of him. It is pathetic I know, but it has been a long time since I really cared about a guy and I have forgotten what it feels like when that guy is no longer a part of my life. I know in the end I am doing what is best by not putting up with his crap. Yet I still wonder if I am being to critical or maybe I just expect to much. It is not like I expect Mr. Perfect though. I just want someone to respect my wishes and beliefs and the fact that my children must come first above all else. Which maybe the problem. Since every guy whats to be number one in their girls life. Maybe I am just destin to be single for all eternity. Which at this point doesn't seem like such a bad idea.
I am not even that upset over the break up. I am more angry then sad. I am angry that I believed that things work between me and Oscar. I should know better by now. Anything that seems to good to be true is always to good to be true. I seem to only meet the boys who think they are men. But they are only self centered boys who don't know how to respect others. What bothers me the most is that Oscar knew, from the very beginning, excatly what I wanted in a relationship and that I would not settle for anything else. Yet he decided that I was being selfish and he didn't want the same thing eight (almost nine) months later. Why couldn't he figure that out in the beginning and save us both the heart ache. He alsio claimed to "love" me. If this is true why didn't he try and make me see that we could work things out. He didn't have anything to say, nothing at all.
My little piece of advice to all the guys in this world. If you are not completely in love with you girl don't pretend that you are. If she says "I love you" and you don't have that feeling for her just tell her your not there yet. If you care for her let her know but do not give the impression you care more then you actually do. If yo decide that the relationship isn't working out, tell the girl immediately. Never string a women along into thinking there is something when there isn't. And don't be a coward just tell her ypu don't think things are working between the two of you. Don't piss her off in hopes she'll dump your ass. Women can be very spitfull and it would be in the guys best interest to just be straight up with us. Then there ex's wouldn't write or talk about all the horrible things the guy did. And maybe we wouldn't hate the male population and would be happier. Therefore we would bitch so much to the guy we are seeing.
All in all the world would be a happier place if the guys with no back bone would just grow some and learn to show some respect and compassion. You have to give it to get it.